Life is crap
There's just more questions than answers
I just feel that something is missing from my life
It`s just pointless
The going-ons in the last few days hurt me
I may not show it
But under this skin my heart hurts
Don't judge a book by its cover
Don't judge how a person feels by his actions

My life has been going downhill
It's just missing something extraordinary
Studying,
playing floorball,
having fun with friends,
running,
writing songs,
keeping secrets,
listening to Varsity
These are great, but not extraordinary

I don't expect to be president when I grow up or something
I just need that X-Factor in my life
And I THINK I may know what it is
I don't know exactly for sure if it is what I am missing
But I do feel it that way
Sorry, but there are some things in life that are best kept secret
Everyone has secrets that they keep to themselves and will NEVER tell anyone
I do, like this feeling I am missing now
Hamzah does,
Hafidzhin does,
Haziq does,
Luqman does,
Heck everybody in this damn world does
They may say it is not true but that is just to keep others from knowing these secrets exist

I'm glad to have a blog to pour out my feelings into
I may not be able to blog my darkest secrets
But at least it makes me feel relieved
Letting out my feelings
But I will be waiting for that day when that special something happens to my life
But till then,
I will always feel this kind of pain in my heart,
Crying out for something more
So, I might as well make something out of my current life

Holidays are here
Gonna be mugging for SA2
But I just don't see the point
We will forget all these stuff we learn in the future
The human brain stores memories and images better than information
The MOE test I sat for on Thursday made me realise this
The Maths paper was topics from primary school to Sec 2
I don't remember a damn thing about
Set notations,
Inversely/Directly proportions,
Highest common factor,
Lowest common multiple,
Mean, mode, median.
So what's the point of learning when you will forget?
Another reason why life is pointless

I learnt a few things this week
Time flies fast,
Friends you have not seen in 2 years will have changed drastically,
Some people around you cannot be trusted,
Writing songs is damn hard, or, at least finding the tune is

I like to read Ziyad's blog
It's just different from others
Not just because he's a decent guy,
But, it just seems kind of meaningful
The only-found-in-dictionary words
Long posts
MEANINGFUL posts
It brings blogging to a whole new level
It's an inspiration for me
Well, what can I say, Ziyad is the perfect role model
Right from when I knew him in Primary 4 I think in Madrasah
Always been great in everything he does
I wish I could be successful in everything I do, like him
I guess that some people are just born talented
I have been monitoring Ziyad and it is safe to say that his life also does not contain this "X-Factor" I am looking for
Yet, he's doing great
So,
If he can do it,
Why can't I?
I just must put in effort and commitment
Before I can become a Chemical Engineer
And have something extraordinary happen to me

Moment of the day to highlight:
Went back TNPS for the first time in 2 years to visit teachers
For teacher's day
Fun, met friends
And Mdm Kamisah was nowhere to be seen.....