It's almost 1.30am in the morning now and I'm sitting in Ziyad's car getting sent home(Thanks Ziyad! xD)
It's been a really emotional night for us all coz Fawwaz left D:
And yeah, I cried
But I was holding back bursting into tears xD
But I'm really gonna miss you bro(:
Now I have school later
I kinda planned to wake up at 4.30am coz I've got a lot of hw to settle but maybe I'll wake up a bit later now
5 maybe? xD
It'll be a miracle if I manage to stay up the whole day later xD
But now yeah, I feel really sad
A good friend has left, but we must move on
But my heart is still down from this
And now it's back to that problem again
I've got to face this
Come on, Afi(:

The weekend is passing damn fast
I don't know how I'm gonna survive the coming week with complications going on =/
I'm lagging behind in everything in life):
But tomorrow shall be a night I will never forget, kinda in a bad way):
But still, memories make history, and history lasts forever, so memories last forever :D

It was a weird start to the day
I found out this morning that my grandfather whom I never knew passed away some time last year
I'm not sure if my mum feels any remorse?
But yeah, it was shocking news, and a weird start to the day =/
I was dragging through the whole of Friday
Coz I knew that it would be just like the other days in terms of sth, yeah
It has to change next week, or I'm screwed =/
Aiya, lucky the weekends are here xD

Today I realize how ruthless I can become when I'm angry
I freaking went to war with mosquitoes
For the past 2 nights, I've been waking up with mosquito bites all over my body, and that left me wondering how the sudden infestation came about
Then I walked into the room just now and saw a mosquito attacking my little brother
That was the last straw
I got ready for battle by wearing gloves and bringing a wet tissue and some dry tissues
I didn't want my hands to get dirty, so yeah, I slammed each mosquito I saw with my hands, cleaned the blood off with the wet tissue and dry the wet part with the dry tissues
In the end, I managed to take down 4 freaking mosquitoes
I'm not sure if there are any left, but if I wake up tomorrow with mosquito bites, I swear tomorrow would be war round 2 xD

On a lighter note, combined school trials went pretty okay?
38-40 people came, and at the end of the training, 8-10 people were told that they could come next week but they had to buck up, so yeah, hopefully I'll make top 30 at the next cut? xD
But really, I think the only reason I'm still there is coz I can dog people, coz I've been below par, LOL

Tomorrow shall be the start of a new chapter in my life
I want things to be the same as before
I shall try my best to make it so
I don't care if the awkwardness pulls me back
What I know is that I can't live like this for 2 years

I don't know what to do with this anymore

Short post!
NUS tenses just now!
We won 3rd place :D
Outplayed by NUS alumni and almost beat the current NUS team
And I seriously became more confused with what line I'm playing in A Div, lol
Now I'm damn tired xD

Camp is finally over!
Well, it was okay lah, the court trainings were more for tactical stuff
And whoa, the tactics can get really confusing, but I'm starting to get the hang of it xD
And we had our first taste of commando training, LOL
JB (Heard he's a commando himself, lol) took us for PT and he pushed us to the max for one hour, doing all sorts of push-ups, crunches, etc. MANY MANY times
And he made us run to the brick wall and back many times too
I don't know why but I started to feel the pain in my shin again when doing the PT stuff
And for the last part of the PT, I couldn't finish the 2 rounds we were supposed to run, coz my shin hurt like hell
To hell with shin splints lah
That time was really the time when my shin hurt the most EVER
Now I can't run -.-
It's partly a good thing coz I didn't have to run 8km just now xD
But then even with counterpain, playing in the MSVS Div 1 match just now was a struggle
Scored one goal though :D
Lost 5-9 though =/
And I kinda thought it was pretty respectable?
Seeing how good they are?
But Yan didn't let me play the last period coz of my shin splint):
Climbing stairs now also can feel pain =/
But seeing that a long rest is needed to recover from shin splints, and that there's no time to rest before A Div, hmmm....
Hopefully it won't last that long lah =/
But if it does, life's gonna suck like hell =/
NUS tenses tmr!
It's a competition!
But then class outing is cancelled):
Noooooo):
I very sadddd):
Nvm, now adik talking to me on MSN
LOL

Camp tomorrow! :D
And I'm gonna come back till Friday
So I'm not gonna update for a few days now
I'm gonna have very little time to do my homework/study now xD
And I still haven't packed my bag yet xD

To all the people that I've made angry or pisssed off, especially you, I'm really sorry(:
And to the 2 people that I've dragged into this too, I think you both are sick and tired of listening to me and I'm sorry too(:
I've got so many questions in my mind
Shit, I need a mental break
That's why I shall go training later

I'm not uptight
I just have really serious confidence issues about myself on this topic
I'm sorry

Had a floorball match just now! :D
Against NUS Uncles
Didn't go madrasah coz of that, lol
Anyway, only 9 people including the keeper came!
That's not enough to make 2 lines ah!
Many of them went to Malaysia o.O
Then Mr Amir said, "Alamak. Holiday only all these Mats go back to their motherland lah"
LOL, THAT WAS DAMN FUNNY LAH xD
Anyway, we played with 3 defenders, 2 centres and 3 forwards with rotation
Damn tiring ah!
I played as centre, didn't get to play as forward =/
BUT I SCORED 3 GOALS, YAY! :D
There was a hat-trick of hat-tricks today o.O LOL
Amos, Yusof and me! :D
Second time I scored a hat-trick, first was against NJC
Pasirian's game was after ours, and I didn't see Hamzah
Maybe he went overseas or sth?
Back to Malaysia, his MOTHERLAND?
HAHAHAHA xD
So yeah, after the match, me and Bing Yu went to eat at Macs while the rest went home
Then mrt-ed to Woodlands and 168-ed back to Tampines
Slept in the bus and missed my stop -.-
Oh wells, at least the bus was still in Tampines and not Bedok by then xD
Now I'm comtemplating whether I should do my homework
Should I or should I not?
Wah, there's no break from Monday to Friday, trainings and camps everyday =/
I miss 10S63!
Class outing on Saturday!
But then maybe Fawwaz leaving on that day?
Or Sunday? I'm not sure
But I think there's also the NUS match on Saturday?
Lucky there's no Div 3 next week, or else I might have 4 stuff I have to go for, LOL
Oh wells, maybe God doesn't want me to miss a Div 3 match xD
And Hamzah, get a goal aite!
I believe in you! :D
Alright, enough crapping
GTG!

I've finally got a laptop
But I'm not elated as I expect myself to be, coz
1) Pissed off coz the principal gave a full day on VOG, our games day, which would be postponed to 25th March, after school, meaning that a full day has been given without a lesson cancelled -.- No sense of thinking, wth =/
2) Sad coz it doesn't seem that you care about this

Life isn't a fairytale

I've been thinking a lot about my life so far
There's been a lot happening in my life
And yes, I've been kinda mentally emo, LOL
VJ's changed me, yes, in a way
And I'm freaking confused right now, about this certain thing
Seriously, FML
But then, I just want everything to stop
I want everything to rewind, back to 9/10/2009
I want to relive Graduation Night again
I want to put on my formal attire, complete with the tie and fedora again
I want to feel stage fright of going on stage again
I want to screw up emcee with Hassan and Taufik again
I want to have that formal dinner at the hall again
I want to take pictures with my damn freaking awesome Victorian friends
I want my heart to be touched by seeing everyone wrap up their 4 awesome memorable years in VS
I want to hear the whole school chanting a birthday song for me again
I want to get chasen down like a prey and dunked into the school pond again
I want to be a Victoria School student for one night again
Much in my life has been FML, but then what I really want is to forget everything and all the complications I'm facing right now and move back to the old VS days again, when everything was care-free
I realise that 9/10/2009, VS Grad Nite Class of '09 was the best night of my life, by a mile
I want to relive it, but I know I can't
That was the past, I had the chance to live past this only once, and so I have done
And now I have to look forward to the future
Hopefully all things would come to a good end
And you were right, I have freaking low self-esteem in myself

There's so much I'm keeping from you

Should I?
Or should I not?

Wow, it's been a long time since I last blogged
Well, I've been really busy lately, reaching back home at night and all
And I've barely got time to do my homework and study!
Oh wells, this IS jc life after all
Plus, my commitment to floorball drains away my energy and time for studies
Speaking of floorball, we beat RJ 7-1 in a friendly yesterday! (:
Well, honestly, we kinda played like shit through the entire game except the last period
We played 4 instead of 3 periods and really, our performance in the first 3 was crap, including mine
Well, with the exception of our solid keepers, of course(:
RJ played rough, but we managed to come through in the end
I didn't know holding someone's stick when he's going to break away from you was allowed o.O
Hamzah scored their only goal, lol
Butttt it was a defensive error rather than individual/team brilliance right? ;D
HAHA
But either way, good goal yawww(:
I scored 2 goals!(:
Both of them in literally the last minute of the last period
2 goals in less then a minute, not bad right? xD
But apart from that one minute, I was totally lost the whole game
COZ I FREAKING NEED A SETTLED FORWARD PARTNER!
Yan played Haziq in defense yesterday so it made me more confused as to who my forward partner will be in A Div -.-
Oh wells, that's a little more than a month away!
So close!
Alright now, Man Utd's match is at 1 plus
Should I sleep first?
Or stay awake and sleep at 3 plus instead?
I'm damn tired, but I have to study for an Econs test on Monday
Hmmmm xD

Eating dinner at Sakura now! xD
I love my new phone(: