I SWEAR I'M DAMN BLOODY BUSY
Now Clic camp group co-ordinator?
Ahhhh, it's okay Afi, it's gonna fun being a leader in your group
Put YSC and HBL behind you and have fun from Sat - Mon!
BASH NIGHTTTT, COME ON KENNY WE'LL SET 'GOLD STANDARDS' HAHAHA

P.S. TO HELL WITY THE E-ASSESSMENTS LOL

I AM FUH-REA-KING SHAGGED
GOODNIGHT WORLD(:

I'm reading GMH online
And some stories just touches my heart


My best friend died in a car accident on his way to deliver me soup for my cold.

Found in the car was also a bouquet of flowers and a card that read:

"We've been best friends for the last 5 years. Now, let's be lovers for the next 50."

Finally, our season is over
What a great way to end it with a team dinner(:
I feel so tired and shagged now
I see no point in coming for school in the remaining 3 days =/
I'm just huffing and puffing towards the holidays
But hey guys, it might have been a nightmare of a season
But J1s, we'll come back stronger next year
We'll bring back what's rightfully ours back to VJ(:
It's a new chapter in our lives as the previous closes
Let's work towards making this year-long chapter one with so much effort put in, sacrifices made, blood, tears and sweat shed, but one with glory at the end(:

Nostalgic moments
We're sorry we couldn't give the school a back to back final on the same day like last year
But nevertheless, we'll still give our all today
For the J2s, it's the last time they'll be pulling on that VJ shirt, so they'll wanna end with a bang
For the J1s, we're gonna remember the pain we felt on 11/5/2010 whenever we feel like giving up
Pre-season's gonna be tough, guys
But it's worth it if we achieve our goal
But right now, one step at a time
The season will be over after this
But not the journey, for the batch of '11
(:

I did try my best
I guess it's just not meant to be our year
Chill, Afi, listen to everyone
You've got a bright future ahead of you
It's time you start appreciating that(:
Over the period of the next year, your life is going to change in various ways you wouldn't imagine, trust me
And they're gonna be positive changes(:
You've got to get over this
It's over
What's left is RJ
What the soccer girls felt just now, you'll feel next year, and everyone is going to work hard to achieve that
You're just gonna have to be patient(:
Good things come to those who wait :D

I'm disappointed in myself
Like, really disappointed
I just don't know what else to say anymore

There is no room for mistakes
There is no room for laziness
There is only room for heroes

Months of preparation
More than half a year, waiting, training
Tuesday, 2pm - One of the most important moment in my life
Tuesday, 3pm - Either I'll be crying (yes, literally) or I'll be jumping with joy
I can't believe it, it's just in 2 days time
It might not be the finals, but it's going to be more epic than the finals
The giants shall clash earlier than scheduled
It's time to take centre stage, guys
It's been hard for me
I had to be strong mentally not to let external problems affect my floorball
I'd be lying if I said it hadn't
God, I don't know why the hell I got myself into this mess in the first place
Yes, I know, I'm a jackass
I know I have to be blamed for it, and I deserve to
I let myself fall
I must admit, I think I underperformed in our games so far
But I CANNOT let the problems I face affect the team
That's why I have to step up
WE have to step up
All these problems that I face in life has to be cast aside once Tuesday arrives
It's so near
We can't let it escape from our grasp

If you could have the arms of Hercules;
legs as swift as the wind;
if you could leap shoulder high above the rim;
have the kick of a dolphin; the reflexes of a cat;
if you could have all this, you would have the body,
you would have the tools.
But you will not have greatness until you understand that
the strongest muscle is the heart

I ask all of you to have faith, not just belief,
because when you belief, somehow or rather, you know what you trust in is there.
But when you have faith, the thing you are trusting in, you haven't seen before.
In crucial points in the semis, you'll feel that you can't run, that you can't keep up anymore
but this 'thing',the desire and the hunger for success,
will bring you far above your limits
and push you on.
Your desire will make you run and play like you have never seen yourself before.
Have faith in that.

We're not just any college
We're VICTORIA Junior College
We have to show them the Victorian Spirit
Coz I believe in it
After 4 years being a Victorian, I've seen blood, tears, FELT blood, tears, and trust me, as much as most new Victorians will put me down, the Victorian Spirit DOES exist
You just have to look in your heart
VJC might not be like VS
But we still have the Victorian Spirit
We can't just use it for talk
It's time to walk the talk

Get inspired, guys
Mental prep begins tomorrow

It's past 1.30am and I felt like sleeping just now, but I won't yet
I've been thinking
The day that has just passed has brought some developments in my life
New directions
It's time for me to rethink my ways
3 decisions, that could go a long way to deciding what kind of guy I'm gonna be
I know I'm not perfect
In fact, I'm very imperfect
I have flaws so great that it hurts people
I broke friendships and I will continue breaking friendships due to my imperfections in everything
In fact, shyness is an imperfection and I can back that up
Which is why no one will like me for who I am in VJ, and as long as I don't like anyone, I'll stay safe
Which is why certain aspects of me have to be improved
Like my leadership qualities
Hell no, I'm not gonna be captain, but I need maturity and leadership capabilities in the eyes of some people
And I need to discuss with Hamzah about this Div 1 thing =/
Know what?
I want to win A Div for the team, not myself
The team deserves it, but I don't
Not when I've done many sins
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Failure is a part of life, and I have to live with it
Everyone fails at one point or another but I don't want to fail in everything I do
Life is hard on you sometimes, but you have to deal with it

I know I'm getting a bit philosophical here, but I'm just being honest
'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'.'
Laying down on bed just thinking about what could have been won't help me
Life just moves on, whether I like it or not

This is hard for me but Vic, you were right
Riding on this train won't help me, it'll only bring me down
Yes, I know, and you've been telling me all this while, I should forget about it
( You, yes, I know you're reading this. I'll try my best alright? Just don't fault me)
: D


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And life goes on
Right?
Time to change
I don't know why I'm smiling
Maybe it's coz I'm being unrealistic
But I'll try my best, even if it kills me ok?
I'll try my best(:
In the mean time, just stay happy(: (: (:

Afi, it's not over
Don't let this affect your floorball
The title's within sight, you can't afford to let your problems affect you
Just get it over with, there's nothing you can do about it
Don't be disappointed
Don't screw yourself
Don't curse yourself
It's over, move on, and keep your head up
You gotta change

At least I did something good today(:

FUCK
I swear I'm fucking frustrated right now
I'm sitting in this 28 bus going home coz I can't take mrt without paying for a standard ticket
My ez link has expired and I fucking don't have a clue why it is
Except that I only found out about it today after I attempted to board a bus
Lucky I had coins or I'd be fucked
So I had to fork out 55c for 3 bus rides each
And this 28 bus?
I paid $1.55 for it coz I paid 55c then the fucking bus driver told me I had to pay adult fare and I couldn't pay $1.40 so I had to put my fucking dollar in
That makes it $3.20 
I've got school and match tmr and I don't know how and when the fuck I'm gng to solve this ez link shit coz I NEED TO TRAVEL
I fucking paid for bus concession and now they have to suck my money on this shit
I swear I'm fucking stressed right now, with this ez link shit and school work and a div and social problems
Seriously, I'm a guy who doesn't really thrive under stress so please don't fault me for that
But now you have to tell me not to make my plight seem so bad
It's not only THAT problem that's making me like this, you know, it's THAT thing AND everything else in my life
You tell me that my life isn't bad but I think it IS bad
If it weren't for my awesome friends, idk what would have happened to me
Just don't tell me that I don't deserve to see my life as plightful coz I'm really trying to get that thought in my head but everything that's happening in my life seem to life seem to disagree with you
I'm not blaming you
I never had
I never will
I'm just frustrated with myself that I made my life like this and that I would think that my life is plightful
Fine, you're right
I'm wrong
But I would really appreciate it if you allow me to criticize my life and not tell me not to make things so plightful
There
My stop has arrived

http://www.formspring.me/afidas

Ahhhh, watching Liverpool is painful!
Now Wigan's our only hope =/
Come to think of it, if Man Utd had got at least 1 of the 2 draws they deserved against Chelsea instead of losing both, they'd be in pole position for the title!
Arghhh, this is frustrating
But at least I finished the math take home test today! :D
Shereen's bugging me for my qn 7 answer! Hahaha
But it was overall okay lah, not too bad :D

Entire day wasted
Literally slept through almost the entire day =/
Woke up twice - Once for lunch, Once for dinner
So I racked up definitely more than a dozen hours sleeping
I knew I was tired, but I just didn't expect myself to sleep that long!
Oh wells, I didn't sleep on Wednesday night and only slept 4 hours on Thursday night, so I shouldn't be surprised xD
Felt guilty though coz I didn't go for MS Victoria's last match =/
I wanted to! But I felt damn giddy and a bit sick at 6 plus AM so I slept through the day =/
Well, at least I just finished my Rates of Change Tutorial :D
On a sidenote, Arts day's on Wednesday -.-
I freaking want to pon, especially since Ernest, Naresh and I are separated for the whatever events thingy
I NO MATCH ON WEDNESDAY!):
But the girls do!
So I should go support them and pon Arts day!
Kill 2 birds with one stone :D

You tell me I don't when I do
I won't say you don't know coz it would piss you off
Losing a friend's trust and losing the ability to give a friend trust sucks
But yet, I can't be plightful
No matter all the shit that's happening in my life now
Can't you for one second take into account how I feel and how AWKWARD it is for me?
I don't hate you
I'm not that kind of guy
How can I?
Honestly, I want to, but IT's been pulling me back
I just don't want to be hated
I'm the guy who screws himself inside out when he does something wrong and would find a reason to screw himself inside out just so he doesn't find faults in his friends
And wonderful, you're allowing me to screw myself
Honestly, it's the first time anyone's ever done that to me, but I somehow feel glad that I'm not getting stick for doing that
Well, if it makes you happy, I'll say it - My life rocks and I have no reason and don't deserve to be sad/pity myself/be plightful/say how i feel/assume things/saying you don't know things
Doesn't it?
But you can't disagree when I say you don't know me
I can't stop myself from telling myself negative things when I know it isn't gonna make my life any better
What even makes you think I want my life to be any better?
I don't right now, coz I deserve this
I WANT to screw myself up
And I'll only stop when they day comes when you're ready to forgive and forget
But right now, I don't deserve the right to feel happy
Why?
Coz I've disappointed you, made you angry, made you despise this whole situation
You don't think that I care
But I DO
A LOT
And I still do see you as a friend
And fyi, if this whole thing continues on forever, don't worry, coz I'll only retain the February memories
I only remember the best in people when I move on(: