My life hit a new low today
I have said before in one of my previous posts
There are 8 stages in grief
Denial,
Anger,
Bargaining,
Guilt,
Depression,
Loneliness,
Acceptance,
Hope.
I've lost count how many times I've gone through this phase in life
And now, I have to go through it again
The only difference is that it's the one that impacts me the most
Crap
I'm lost in life
Really lost
Let's just say that I'm a race car with fuel, nitro and the finishing line in sight
Then, suddenly, I ran out of nitro and the finishing line was changed to an unknown location
So, I stop by the roadside, not knowing what to do
I stil have the fuel and even without the nitro, I can make the finishing line
The only problem is, I don't know where that finishing line is.
Everything,
The nitro, fuel and finishing line represents some things in my life, things important to me
Yet, the race car is lost
I am lost
Which brings me to hope, once again
No one can stop me from hoping.
Even when it seems a forgone conclusion that there's no point in hoping
Yet, I still hope
Hope that I can find that finishing line
Hope that I can gain my nitro again
Hope that all the things that would be no use hoping for would seem clear to me
Until that time comes,
I wonder aimlessly in the race car hoping to find the finishing line,
Knowing that a nitro would allow me to cover more ground faster
I have the fuel
I need the nitro
I need the finishing line
I need the cat (only one person would understand :) )